i had a list

there is nothing to say and nothing to do
but lie in bed and think about ... things
the mice
the virus
the bacteria
the dust
the articles and belongings I have taken responsibility for and must somehow dispose of
the broken glass I am learning to ignore
the child labour I lightheartedly bought into
the sunshine returning

I could say I'm far behind on my list of things to do
I could catch up with myself running laps on that track or let her go